For Reasons I've Forgotten

"It is not how old you are, but how you are old." - Jules Renard

Has the bad moon phased away? Has the smoke cleared? I awoke this morning, albeit with a crick in my neck, but with a strangely amazing great attitude and feeling.

5:00 a.m. and we headed to the gym, did some cardio (neck still barely turning). I took some Advil, hoping it would loosen the tightened muscles or whatever was causing the pain to my neck and shoulder. Still, I felt so good which is totally unlike me facing a Monday morning. (I mean seriously, "Monday" AND "morning" too?)

Maybe it had something to do with the fact that we ate healthy most of the weekend instead of totally blowing our health regime. Then again, maybe it was the fact that I went to bed early enough not to wake up feeling like a zombie on heroin. I don't know, I just know that I am starting it out well today. I know this is good news to a lot of you, who have begging of me 'more positive' outlooks and words... I hope I continue to feel the same, and better.

In honor of this, I'll review a few happy thoughts I've had, and thought of yesterday and today.

-Glad to have my house clean, everything feels nicer when the house is clean.

-I'm quite lucky to have a husband who cooked breakfast while I went to soak in Epson Salts to remedy my stiff neck & shoulders, what a sweet guy. (Plus he makes better scrambled eggs than I do).

-Looked forward to driving in to work this morning, I really enjoy what I do, even though I feel that I have quite a lot on my plate sometimes, which is the cause of some of my stress I guess--thinking I'm never going to get done or accomplish the things I'd like to...

-Still have both my parents, who are still married [just celebrated their 45th anniversary]. And I get to go and visit them any time I want... Even though I can't go every single day or weekend because of being so busy. But I at least make it down every couple weeks.

-Good Friends, Good Family, and people who are nice and care about me in my life.

-A great DVD collection of funny movies to watch when I get bored or lonely for an old friend.

-Musical Talent and a knack for creativity (yes, I'm tooting my own horn on that one).

-Today's comfortable pants and shoes (lol).

-A hot cup of strong black coffee just steps away from me and my $1.00 mug.

-A comfortable work chair.

-A vast array of cheap sunglasses.

-Headphones with great music in my collection to listen to when the things around me get too noisy to take.

Gee, there are many things I could name-and keep on going. So you see, I'm still in a bit of shock at the positive way I am looking at this Monday. I'm hoping that I'm not like Bruce Willis in the Sixth Sense, walking around dead and just don't know it... nah, too many people have spoken to me so far... unless they are too! lol j/k

Now, for a few positive things that I would like to work on in the interest of continuous improvement of my general outlook and wellbeing.

-Making friends with my age, and aging... I want to be one of those people who says "I love being [insert digit].

-Go out and do adventurous things again, and enjoy life without worrying "what if" [insert disaster or neurosis].

-Take my own advice in living one day at a time, and not try to compare myself to some 'perfect prototype' of human being or plan of how life should be lived. I'm an individual, and I'm here to blaze my own damn trail...

-Get back (seriously) to my painting and art, it's a big part of what is missing within me right now.

-Vow never to go without my lipstick again (I think this is where the world went wrong to begin with--hehe)

-Strive to always make fun of even the worst situation, because eventually it's going to be funny anyway, so I might as well laugh now.

-Travel More, and have more fun... and do a better job of taking my own advice on my "no regrets" policy.

Hopefully, this hasn't bored you guys, and I also hope it made you feel even that much better too... So with an honest heart I wish you a Happy Monday!!