Deep In The Forrest

We can wake up to many things... wake up to a good or bad morning (depending on our attitudes), wake up to a new idea, wake up to change, wake up to the person we have become... it's limitless. As far as the regular waking up, I have been going through a hard time the last few days. These full moons have been kicking my ass on a regular basis... I don't know why. I have returned to trying to take the Melatonin at night, for decent rest, and more so because I am trying to work on better dream recall and trying harder to have "Lucid Dreams" (you know, when you are dreaming, and you realize you are dreaming and can take control of the dream--very cool!). They happen, but very infrequent for me... Right now, this is my goal in the dream work. Night before last, this bombed as I dreamt that I was in bed with a very young Tom Cruise... This was very distressing for me because I have never liked Tom Cruise, not even when he was younger and less idiotic with his Scientology.....

Maybe if I lived with a man who awoke at the crack of dawn to greet the day with great fervor... maybe I would be able to wake up alive and bursting with energy. Instead, I must peel my eyes open daily, drag myself out of bed only to have to look at the man I love, still lying there cozy and hibernating like a bear in the dead of winter under the warmth of the delicious electric blanket. See, I detest waking up in the morning (aside from the general glee at the realization that I am still lucky to be alive come daylight). I usually sleep too long... which is as long as I can get away with, then I have only enough time to bathe and throw myself together and hurry off to beat the traffic and come hurdling into the office Fashionably Late (if I may say so, as a 'techie' without sounding dimly like a slacker). Luckily, I enjoy what I do so it's definitely not "work dread" keeping me glued to my mattress, it's just simple exhaustion and lack of motivation from lyi...

Thursday morning began by my waking up earlier than usual. I attribute this to the fact that I took the Tylenol Simply Sleep at 8:00 p.m. instead of 9 or 10 as I had been. The first two nights, I still could not wake up as planned. After taking it at 8 instead, I was successful! So afterwards, I came home and made a healthy low-carb breakfast of Turkey Bacon, and Grade A organic Eggs. As well, I put on a nice pot of strong coffee. This is the first time I have made coffee since I bought my big "ThermoServ" mug, so needless to say I was thrilled to indulge in this climactic event. I proceeded to get ready for work, and after all that effort at making an "earlier" start, getting ready, I still arrived in the parking garage at the same time as I have been... WTF?? Where did I go wrong?? Do I have a built-in time clock now that says, "Nooo, just chill out it is not late enough for you to leave yet... Oh go the speed limit, you've got plenty of time!!" (Wel...