Deep In The Forrest

My heart has felt very heavy lately. I've felt overwhelmed by a lot of things. While I advise others to let stress roll off their backs and say: "Don't worry over things you have no control over" it seems so hard for me to take my own medicine. Why?? I know it does no good to stew over anything... I'm trying hard not to. Just lately it's been financial crap, seemingly one issue after the other. I can't help but get a little tightened up over it because I have to pay the bills and we have to be able to get to and from work and groceries etc... I know that I am fortunate though so far that we are making it... albeit paycheck-to-paycheck, but still afloat. Many people have things worse than that lately, so I truly hope that things get better for everybody... not just me. People need to wake up and realize that we need to all help one another and when given an opportunity to make some sort of a difference we should take it. If everyone did one thing a day to ...

Today is the tomorrow we worried about yesterday. ~Author Unknown Why do we worry and stew over things, just giving faith to the "fact" that things are always going to end in the worst case scenario?? How many times have you worried yourself sick over something and it nearly resolved itself, or you got such great relief when you found out the outcome that it was a heavy weight lifted from your chest? Worrying does nothing but wear us out, emotionally, mentally, sometimes physically. It does nothing to solve our (mostly imagined) problems. But yet we become a ball of nerves in anticipation of whatever we think some problem is going to bring us "tomorrow". Seriously, couldn't you use the extra energy that your nerves are draining you of to accomplish so many other things?? Couldn't it save you money on all those cigarettes you might be chain smoking, or just help you feel better? Signs and synchronicity everywhere point to the answers. You can get your very...

First of all, I forgot my deodorant this morning... I just realized it when I raised my arms to stretch. So much for smelling sexy today. I've just had so many things on the brain lately, stress type stuff about Mom, worrying about her emotional state after all she's been through with Dad, and band-related stuff to boot. For one, you know how easy it is to get the wrong idea, or misunderstandings in e-mails? Well, I guess it was Friday and we had a sort of 3 way e-mail going on between my husband, my drummer and myself. The discussion was about how crappy Memphis was, and just how we had entertained thoughts of how cool it would be to live elsewhere (like NYC or something) one day. It wasn't anything definite, and it wasn't meant as a "Hey man, we're going to pack our belongings and take the first train outta here". Just general discussion. Well for some reason, he evidently took it to heart way more than we meant it, and freaked out a little. I won't ...

Words can't describe my feelings today, at this moment. I feel stressed, yet I still feel my inner voice saying "don't even sweat anything, it's all gonna pan out". I know that, still I really feel the treads of this long week... I'm still sweating taxes, family's expectations of things I gotta do, trying to keep up the pace and carry on the workload professionally. Everyone's been there at some point or another, and stressing doesn't get any of it resolved faster, so I'm gonna take my deep breath and chill. {***deep breath***} O.k... good (I guess). Now, what do I blog about if I don't rant about being stressed at this moment? Because that's exactly what I was about to do! No post yesterday, I was busy at work, then busy after work helping a friend with some computer "how to's"... so I got home late, got to bed late, then woke up late. Waking up late screwed up our morning workout, Mr. J got screwed out of a good breakfas...

Well, if you are reading this, live from the blog, or from your Subscription to my blog, then that means we made it to Friday! I am tired, stressed and have been a little testy these last couple of days. I just think it's everything coming down on me at once. The things I have to get done, all the impending duties with my Father, Work stuff, Band pressures... just too much for me to deal with... Been feeling like I'm going to crack... or maybe I already have. Ok, well I thought I would up date you guys and inform you that my Top 3 most "Creepy MoFos" are still: 1. Clowns 2. The Burger King Dude 3. Creepy Ass Dolls Also, I have been getting more and more phone calls on my work line for other people. This really gets on my nerves. Calls for employment, calls for some other dude who hasn't been here for like over 4 years, people asking for other departments. It's gotta stop. I'm not the information desk, and I have no idea about the guy who was here 4 years a...

Yes, I've officially changed the name of Monday to "Funday". If you can't beat em', join em... right? Why worry about all of the things you have no control over?? Why let things get to you and stress you out causing mental and physical harm to yourself?? Worrying only hurts you... Everyone else just goes on with their lives... so let's boycott the stress, the guilt and the worry. If you've ever seen "Office Space" , you'll know that the main character "Peter", just decided that he was tired of it all and just not going to do any of it anymore... Wouldn't that be great?? We can at least try... Oh, well I'm feeling some better in the way of Holiday thinking (sort of as I stated above). I'll just do what I can do, and the rest i'll leave for someone else to stress over :) Is that person going to be you?? Or will you join me in the ranks of the 'Let it Flow" movement?? It's your health... hehe. Well, i...