Thursday, February 15, 2018

Quizás Quizás Quizás

Once again I have been abusing "Tortilla Soup" (meaning I have been watching it every time I see it. I love the music. I love watching Hector Elizondo cook (even though I'm sure it's a stand in on the cooking shots, i'm not sure). However, it's one of my feel good movies. This song puts a smile in my heart. Perhaps... Quizas...

Thursday, February 01, 2018

Chapter 2 of 12

The first month of the year has come and gone, and today is February 1st. Fall really flew by, way too fast in my opinion, and I'm still a little depressed that the holiday season is over, to be honest. I like the lights and the music and the holiday movies. I like imagining that I live in New York like my favorite characters in so many movies that I watch on repeat. Man, I can't even really count how many times I have truly watched some of them, but it's up there.

This was something I was thinking a lot about just the other day, how I watch t.v. shows like "Seinfeld", and "Friends", and movies like "You've Got Mail" that overly-romanticize New York City for me. They make me think, 'Hey I could actually afford to live there, and isn't it glamorous and cool?!' I have often fantasized that I would run a cool, trendy coffee shop and be a part of the art scene. These movies and t.v. shows make it so over-hyped though, it is unfair because I know that would never be my reality. So I am left to my dreams, I guess. As I was saying, though I'm still miffed at how fast the time flies, and how fast last year just zipped past me. Here we are in 'Chapter 2' of 12 effectively, on the first day of the last month of my favorite season (well, it's a toss up between fall and winter, maybe a tie). February has some of the most gorgeous and richly crimson sunsets though, so there's something to look forward to.

Mississippi doesn't offer much in the way of cold weather, so I always hang on tooth and nail to what we do get around these parts... because spring will bloom soon enough, and that's pleasant for about 2 beautiful days, then it just jumps right into the basement of hell in the Mid-South. 50-60 degrees melts into a blazing 100, mud-covered, sweaty degrees, and thus is Southern Living.

Have a sexy February everybody... I'll be back with some sunset snapshots and maybe even some Romantic Comedy stories from my own life to amuse you all with.

(Turns the page)

Jax ;-)

Tuesday, January 02, 2018

Another Year Gone By

No fancy plans, stories or gimmicks really for this post. Just grief for the passing of yet another year gone by. I just thought I would take a moment to reflect and send out my best wishes to all of you, those I know, those I don't know--Anyone who might actually be reading this, which I doubt is anybody at all, but may miraculously be one or two people. If you're reading this, thank you. I try to find reasons to keep blogging and writing, and I know it is silly to want feedback, or some sort of confirmation from others, but just knowing someone reads and appreciates our words, thoughts and feelings (selfishly) does mean a lot to me. I miss having readership, I always enjoyed getting the comments back, but things have changed a lot with blogging. Nobody really does it anymore I guess... or not many. Those who do, it's usually related to a specific project they're working on (as a marketing tool), or it is one of those blogs where you already have a huge following, and you report on products, or nightlife and culture of your city. So I'm kinda on my own here, I know it, and that's just how it is.

Still, though it probably serves more as a journal type tool for me, I'll continue to write as if I am reaching someone.

As I said above, time has really just flown by. It depresses me greatly, and though I try to stay upbeat (given all of the issues I've been through, health, life and otherwise), I still struggle daily because it is just really hard sometimes to keep pressing on with optimism. Each day that I wake up, I am grateful, and I have to just sit up from my bed, put my feet on the floor and force myself to get up and get going. I try to take it one day at a time (moment to moment really) and do the most I can each day. That is all any of us can do.

Yet the passage of time, how fast things are speeding really still gets to me. I wish I didn't feel this way. I really don't want to be one of those people who can't stop obsessing over the past, the 'good ole days', wanting terribly to find the time machine and go back to before the world went wrong, and always aching with that feeling of wanting to go 'Home' (after all, as Thomas Wolfe immortalized best, 'You Can't Go Home Again').

But I am and will probably always be, one of those people.

Happy New Year Everybody.

“Child, child, have patience and belief, for life is many days, and each present hour will pass away. Son, son, you have been mad and drunken, furious and wild, filled with hatred and despair, and all the dark confusions of the soul - but so have we. You found the earth too great for your one life, you found your brain and sinew smaller than the hunger and desire that fed on them - but it has been this way with all men. You have stumbled on in darkness, you have been pulled in opposite directions, you have faltered, you have missed the way, but, child, this is the chronicle of the earth. And now, because you have known madness and despair, and because you will grow desperate again before you come to evening, we who have stormed the ramparts of the furious earth and been hurled back, we who have been maddened by the unknowable and bitter mystery of love, we who have hungered after fame and savored all of life, the tumult, pain, and frenzy, and now sit quietly by our windows watching all that henceforth never more shall touch us - we call upon you to take heart, for we can swear to you that these things pass.”
― Thomas Wolfe, You Can't Go Home Again

Related Link(s):
Why Time Feels Like It's Flying By and How to Slow It Down