I picked up a brush yesterday for the first time in years (simply too long for any self respecting creative person to admit), and I dipped it in the oil paints and I slapped it around on the canvas.
I know, I already know that this is shocking to anyone who is aware that I am an artist--well I don't consider myself an artist because I have neglected it so long... but I can paint, draw, whatever... so anyway, for those of you who knew this, please don't come to me with a "Well it's about time!! Didn't you buy those paints nearly 2 years ago??" I already know, and I feel stupid enough that I haven't painted in so long, so that's punishment enough for me.
However, what I ended up painting looked like something that Satan puked up, and I am totally ashamed of it. No worries, I just need to find my bearings, and find myself once again... It will come. The important thing is I got it out and tried.
I was going to post a photo of it (what I have so far), but I am totally ashamed of it and can't bear to show it to anybody.
A is for "Art"
S is for "Shame"
S is also for "Shitty"
So I better get back to the art board and see if I can improve the situation.