Waking Up

We can wake up to many things... wake up to a good or bad morning (depending on our attitudes), wake up to a new idea, wake up to change, wake up to the person we have become... it's limitless.

As far as the regular waking up, I have been going through a hard time the last few days. These full moons have been kicking my ass on a regular basis... I don't know why. I have returned to trying to take the Melatonin at night, for decent rest, and more so because I am trying to work on better dream recall and trying harder to have "Lucid Dreams" (you know, when you are dreaming, and you realize you are dreaming and can take control of the dream--very cool!). They happen, but very infrequent for me... Right now, this is my goal in the dream work.

Night before last, this bombed as I dreamt that I was in bed with a very young Tom Cruise... This was very distressing for me because I have never liked Tom Cruise, not even when he was younger and less idiotic with his Scientology... Ikkk. The only thing that has disturbed me worse than the Tom Cruise sexual dream was a dream I had some years ago wherein I was having sex on the couch at my parents' house with none other than Jerry Garcia. (Sorry Jerry, no disrespect to you) This disgusted me greatly... although I do respect the Grateful Dead's music.

Last night's dreams I remembered when I woke up in the middle of the night, but then when I got up for the day I had forgotten them altogether. This might not work out as far as the dream recall. In order to improve lucidity, there are supposed to be several things that you can do to improve the chances of achieving lucid dreams. One is to get really good at dream recall, so the dream journaling helps. Having a pen and paper bedside, and jotting down a quick note about the dream, so that you don't forget... Two, it has been stated some supplements etc. work such as the Melatonin. Also, giving yourself 'signals', or doing something that you might recognize in the dream (dream signals). One person said that they set their watch to beep at different points throughout the day, and that whenever it beeped they would look at their hands and consciously wonder "Is this a dream?" This conditioned the subconscious to pick up on that, so the watch beeps during the night, and they are able even in dreams to look at their hands and ask this--which in turn, sparks the Lucid dream action. It can be different from person-to-person, but I am working on this... hopefully I can improve.

AJ as Picasso's "The Dreamer" (2008 by AJ)

I've always been interested in Lucid dreams and Out of Body Experiences (OBE). We'll see. I just have a hard time getting into a very relaxed state, and clearing my mind. I enjoy sleep sometimes more and more though... especially that sleep that you get RIGHT AT THE TIME that you are having to wake up and begin your day... why does that sleep feel soooo good?? I never want to actually go to bed and go to sleep at night, then in the morning, it's just the opposite.

Sometimes in dreams and in Life, I guess, waking up can be a very wonderful experience, and then sometimes you just want to put your pillow over your head go right back to sleep.