February 19, 2006
Alexandria my Love,
You have every reason in the world to hate me, I don't blame you at all. I am truly sorry things had to work out this way. I tried... I honestly want you to know that I had every intention of leaving, I wanted to with my whole heart... the heart that you stole from me, but I can't do it. Not right now.
The truth is that things are just not so simple. It has only been a month since Becky's father's passing, and she is just too fragile right now. Our relationship has been strained for so long, I told you that but with circumstances the way that they are right now I have no other choice. I have to protect my son. Tyson has to be my priority right now...
Please just give a little more time. As soon as things are stable, once I get everything straightened out, I am going to fulfill my promise to you. I know there's no good reason for you to believe me, but everything I say is true. This time, I am going to make it all happen for us.
God, Alexandria...I thought I had loved, then I met you and now I know that everything else that has happened in my life has been solely to light my path to where you are... Please know that I won't go a moment without thinking of you, and wishing that I could be right by your side.
I won't be able to breathe until I can see you again. When the time is right, I promise you that we are going to start all over, and spend the rest of our lives as one.
All My Love,
Alexandria Prince never once dreamed of being this far away from home. There was a time when she thought she would live in Ashvale forever. She grew up there, graduated there, it was where she had her very first kiss. It was the place she'd planned on someday raising her very own family. But now, as she read Aidan's letter for the thirtieth time, the melancholy sense of hopelessness descended upon her. Her heart was filled with wild panic and bitterness.
She'd heard it all before, and each time she continued to hang on, believing that he really wanted to get away and start a new life with her. How could she have been so naive? When they first met, she was nothing more than a petrified girl, still trying to figure out what to do with her life. They were only friends, and it started out so innocently. But Aidan Donovan Morse changed everything; he had awakened something within her that she never even imagined existed. He had ignited a fire of passion so electric, that it burned down in flames the world as she knew it.
Nothing could ever top something that strong. She knew she would always compare everyone and every possibility to that one perfection--the one that ruined her. There was no going back after that; there was no reason to even try. That's why she was here now, in Memphis. No memories lived here, no connections and no past. There was only a future of change, a slate she could wipe clean. She was finally going to be the one in control.
"This is for the best." she whispered, softly under her breath. Better for her, and better for the unborn child growing inside her womb... Except for the seashell she kept with her at all times, this was the only thing of Aidan's she brought with her. "He can never know" she reassured herself, "and he can never find me."