The double-bed that I have called home for several years now, I am starting to rethink. With a pillow and mattress hogging husband, a heart worm recovering dog and a cat who's a 'primo uomo' all piled up (the newest edition to our "pack" hasn't been allowed on the bed yet), I can scarcely turn over without waking up each time I flip, and balling up just to have a spot to snooze.
As a result, I never want to wake up in the mornings and I have the hardest time peeling myself out of bed. I've found myself yawning off and on throughout the day too. We'll see. I can't really afford to go and buy a new bed right now, but I know that it's really time.
During the portions where I do sleep, I have my occasional strange dream. Like last night for instance, my father visited me in the dream. He had his back turned, but I saw him and I said, "Daddy?!" and he turned around and we kind of communicated for a moment. Then I am so used to being broken from good dreams and/or losing connections and having things switch around quickly that I said, "Don't leave... stay!" He looked at me and said something neither profound or meaningful to me as I can't think for the life of me what significance it could have. He said, "I want you to go tear up those Cuban shoes."
Now, mind you, in the dream this had great significance because I thought about the pair of shoes that he meant, which were his but in real-life are more like a pair of shoes Richie owns but has never worn. They are not specifically "Cuban", but they are strange looking dress shoes. Anyway, I responded to Dad, "O.k., I will. I'll tear them up."
Just then, my Mom shows up in the scene, and went over to her and hugged her very tight. Then she and my father embraced one another, so tightly that it appeared for just a moment that they were joined together as if two sides of a whole. It was very loving.
Seeing them there, able to hug each other again, both standing together, made me feel very happy. At this point the dream switches to other sequences, nothing more of note really.
Now, on to the "MITZVAH". Today, Friday, I tried very hard to keep a positive attitude and treat everyone with kindness of course, in my work capacity I usually do. It's just my way, as I have always had good customer service skills. When I'm at work, I am usually so busy or have so many things going on in my head it's hard to consciously make efforts to do certain things. However, I was very pleasant and helpful to several clients over the phone today, and tried my best to make their day easier with my assistance.
As well, we had a "going away" luncheon for a coworker who is moving to Seattle, and we enjoyed a friendly lunch, and I gave him a hug goodbye, and wished him a safe journey and the best of luck. That's nice. Doing good makes one feel good too... although it is not always easy, because people make you double think it quite often. ;)
Lastly, I will take the opportunity now to silently send all of you who are reading this healing thoughts of love and peace. I hope that whatever you are needing right now at this moment, whether that be a message, an answer to a question you have been wanting to know, or other things such as making it through these holidays and being able to provide your family with what they need, or maybe good health for an ailing loved one... I hope that you receive, and recognize the gifts and/or answers when they come to you. It's not always easy, but if you take a few moments during a busy day, and become completely silent and look inward, you'll find that you had it within your grasp all along.
Today's gift from me then, peace, love and the knowledge that it is all within you. Stay strong. I will try to do the same.
Now, go and read my blog from yesterday about all my holiday bitchings if you have not already done so. :)
Un Beso Por Ti,