Well, I went for it. I finally bought a Powerball ticket yesterday. Suffice it to say, as I am still here, that I apparently did not win the jackpot. I just knew that I was going to be a millionaire come today... but as usual, nothing. Surprise for me... again, nada.
Luck, except where it counts, has never been a big friend of mine. The reason that I say "except where it counts" is because I try hard to think positively about these things, and try to count my blessings and all that. I have honestly gone through a ton of weird ordeals in my life, and have been in situations that could've ended rather badly, but 'where it counts', I have been watched over, protected and taken care of.
But I never, ever get any unexpected windfalls, or win anything, or just stumble into greatness. I know people who do though, my husband for one has superior luck in just about anything he does.
A friend of mine who must remain nameless that stumbled on some curiously good luck lately, just in time when she needed a positive outcome. That's a good thing. If she reads this, she needs to know that I began this post before I heard of her good fortune also... this post was not "sparked" by her news.
I am happy for people when they have this type of good luck, I swear I am. But, why do prosperity and good fortune seem to elude me? I try to have a good attitude, even though I know it is a daily struggle for me. I think that my heart is (mainly) in the right place, and when I help someone, or do a good deed, I do it without thought to hoping that I will get rewarded.
If we manifest our good fortune, and attract great things because of our thought process, I can understand my troubles I guess. Maybe I don't make enough effort to be truly positive and have things go my way. If going through pains and negativity is part of a lesson, I understand that too, but I promise you God and the Universe, I comprehend and I would pass the pop quiz on it all right now!
When is it my turn to experience joyous gifts of luck and positive changes? What am I missing? What do I have to do?
Maybe I was a terrible person in a past life, or maybe I'm just still being punished for the time my Sister Vickie and I went to Fitzgerald's Casino and I stole coins off the Blarney Stone... I have paid my dues!
I'm just ready for a few things to go my way and for Lady Luck to smile upon me for once. I promise not to waste the good fortune, there are so many things I want to do for those closest to me and in this life but have neither the time, the funds or the resources to get there... to make a real difference.
Luck evidently is a Man since they've always done me wrong. ;)