Deep In The Forrest

I woke up feeling so groggy this morning. A day after if you will. I'm so tired. I Feel Like Singing... With your feet in the air and your head on the ground Try this trick and spin it, yeah Your head will collapse But there's nothing in it And you'll ask yourself Where is my mind? Way out in the water See it swimmin I was swimmin in the carribean Animals were hiding behind the rock Except the little fish But they told me, he swears Tryin to talk to me koi koy Where is my mind? You see, yesterday was my Dad's birthday. He would have been 82 years old. It was the first time in my entire life that we did not go home and celebrate Daddy's birthday. Daddy loved his birthdays and his Fathers Days... and every day that he got to spend "looting up" on gifts and enjoying time with the love of his life (Mom) and his children. We always looked forward to the same with them. My cousin Gary also shares a birthday with my Father... August 29th. There hav...

I took my melatonin last night by 7:00 p.m. in an effort to be ready for bed so I would feel like getting up in time for the gym this morning. Mr. J made Asian-style Ahi Tuna, and I made a low-carb cheesecake, and all seemed according to plan except for the fact that I accidentally used Coconut flour instead of Almonds for my crust... It left me as cotton mouthed as the Sahara!! Although I am usually unaffected by caffeine consumption, I had drank too much Coke Zero... perhaps that's why I tossed and turned all night and couldn't manage to go to sleep. I flipped and I flopped to no avail. Layed on my stomach... turned on both sides. Then I got back in 'tv' position and ended up watching the movie Elizabeth (about Queen Elizabeth I of England). Finally I guess I drifted off... because 5:00 a.m. came wayyy too early, and I got up and forced myself to go ahead and hit the gym, #1 because I really want to keep it up and #2 because I despise landing in Mr. J's wrath whe...

Late and short and to the point... It's WWC day. I have not been doing well at this because of lack of creative time. Things have been just too hectic and stressful with work and other issues. I am hanging in here though... Today's words are "8" and "Earth" (Thanks Tink!! WWC Now Brought To Us By Facebook) ;) Here goes: Mom, Cranking the Same Classic V-8 Truck She Used To Drive Me To Elementary School... Dig That! Peanut Butter and Jelly, a Down-To-Earth Snack! My Bike, "Jimi" Always Brings Me Down To Earth When I'm Upset Bonus Photo: "Tornado-Bound Sky"

“I have noticed even people who claim everything is predestined, and that we can do nothing to change it, look before they cross the road.” ~Stephen Hawking It's Sunday night... I wish I had the time to throw down a really long blog entry, not that anyone would really read it. I really don't have the time anyways since it is kinda late and I have to watch True Blood before konking out for the night... so there. Amidst the muck of all things human and putrid, where the rude asshole reign and the stupid people continue to be allowed to breed, there are glimmers of hope that allow me deep sighs of tranquility. Just like today, for instance, I got a decently early start, rode my bike down to Mom's in a great temperature... it stayed in the 80s pretty much. It felt so good outside. Once again, the "Bob Ross Paintings" zipped by, one after one... (Bob Ross Paintings, that's what I have come to affectionately call the scenery that I pass when I elect to be blissful a...

Well, I went for it. I finally bought a Powerball ticket yesterday. Suffice it to say, as I am still here, that I apparently did not win the jackpot. I just knew that I was going to be a millionaire come today... but as usual, nothing. Surprise for me... again, nada. Luck, except where it counts, has never been a big friend of mine. The reason that I say "except where it counts" is because I try hard to think positively about these things, and try to count my blessings and all that. I have honestly gone through a ton of weird ordeals in my life, and have been in situations that could've ended rather badly, but 'where it counts', I have been watched over, protected and taken care of. But I never, ever get any unexpected windfalls, or win anything, or just stumble into greatness. I know people who do though, my husband for one has superior luck in just about anything he does. A friend of mine who must remain nameless that stumbled on some curiously good luck lately,...

I used to feel like a bad assed bitch. I really did. Doesn't seem like such a long time ago. But nowadays I feel so empty inside about so many things. I manage to fake myself through my daily grind, but deep down I miss the person I was inside and outside a few years back. When I listen to all of the songs, they give me glimmer of hope and a spark of what was, and I miss my youth terribly and feel sick to my stomach. The fault is all my own. I have been lazy and afraid of change. I have lost my ability to be spontaneous and enjoy life for what it is worth, day to day. My philosophies about it, and my desires about it haven't changed. Way deep down, I am still the same person, but I can't seem to reach her, or break out and be free. I just don't know what to do anymore. Still trying to play catch up and make the time to get around to everyone's blogs and see what's going on. I am sorry for being so absent lately. I am trying... Feeling down all of a sudden, sorry...

Friday, August 14, 2009 @ 4:30 p.m. It's Friday and I can't be glad enough. Earlier I had ideas that I wanted to blog about so maybe I should have waited until later in the evening to sit down to this so I could concentrate and really think more about the points I want to get across. I'm sure I have a cool post in here somewhere. [Pause] Sunday, August 16, 2009 @ 8:00 p.m. Wow, ok I have certainly blog-slacked again, as I started this post Friday and the weekend hit and I just did not stop really until now. I never had enough time since Friday's beginnings to stop and finish it up, so I will just do that dramatic time lapse thingy and you will enjoy it hehe. Ok, so what happened between "Somewhere", the [Pause] and now? Let's see, where do I start? It's not that interesting at all really. Friday when I got off work, I guess first we went to grab something to eat, and Mr. J drank about half a bottle of Gentleman Jack, and we stayed up way too late . I w...

Getting your day off to a good start is important, is it not? For example, my day starts off at its best when I am able to get my exercise first thing in the morning, have a peaceful little breakfast, quick soak in the tub, get ready in peace and then tackle the day. This morning that was not the case. Just about 2:00 a.m. I awoke from yet another dream about Slash. It's all fine and good that I dream about him, but this is a man who I met only once, when he was using my back to sign my shirt. I admire him and his talent, but that's about it. He really has enjoyed showing up in my dreams though! So this time, he and my husband (Mr. J) were hanging out and jamming, and drinking tequila. They made ME go and get their tequila (which was a brand called "Pit Viper"). To my knowledge, there is no tequila named Pit Viper, so that was funky. There was more happening around me, but that was the basic jist of it. I sat up in bed, decided to go and pee, then went back to sleep ...

Today is Weekly Words Challenge day! Normally, I link this over to the Mighty Tink's blog, but since she has deserted ship as it were, she has moved this over to Our Weekly Words Challenge Group on Facebook! So go there and check it out if you are on Facebook and would like to join in, why not add me as your friend if you haven't already... go ahead. Can you make the cut? haha. j/k At any rate the process of posting has changed slightly, but each blogger has decided what to do and how they want to go about it, I think many of us will continue to post the pics on our blogs, and then place a link to that in our WWC Facebook Group... seems like a plan. So here we go. This week's words were "H" and "Fade". I went rather minimalistic on this, rather than cop out completely. As usual, I don't think my photos merit much of an award, but here they are! "H" is for Hummingbird Summer Flowers Soon Fade What else can I say today? It's Tuesday, a...

Yeah yeah yeah, I have felt down about family stuff, worries about my Mother and just life in general all weekend long. But when that happens, something usually makes me laugh and gives me a reason to go on. No matter how weird I feel I look, or how much of a misfit I think I am, there is always someone out there who has it worse than me. Case in point... That's all for the moment, they've got me workin big time today, so I'll be in touch, I promise. It's been busier than ever the last few days. I'll report soon!

Feels like a good day to do some "thinking". I've been kind of mulling a lot of things over, so I thought I would officially just brainstorm it on out in this blog entry. I do not know what is going to come out yet, but here goes. No illustrations or pics, just a bunch of words. ;) Some things that I'm liking on: Sleeping late (any chance I get). Watching True Blood Playing World of Warcraft Playing around on Facebook Watching favorite movies I have seen a million times Annoying people with endless quotes from said movies Days that are cooler than 80 degrees Listening to music Finding quiet time where nobody is bugging me Taking hot baths in some kind of bath salts or oil Some things I hate on: The Daily Grind (a.k.a. S.S.D.D.) Not Winning The Lottery (guess I should actually buy a lottery ticket) Rude People At Drive-Thru Windows Attempts to Manipulate Me By Preying On My Emotions Sink Full Of Dirty Dishes Husband Leaving Unrinsed Dishes To Sour And Stink Finding Sai...

Today's Cancer Horoscope: It's one thing to be sensitive to other people's needs, but quite another if your happiness is totally dependent on someone else's emotions. The problem with placing the source of your satisfaction outside of yourself is that you cannot alter how anyone feels. However, you can change your attitude, which impacts your response to a situation. In preparation for tomorrow's Full Moon Eclipse, remind yourself that loving others begins with loving yourself. That's good advice any day... for any of us! Woke up this morning to the sound of the fan blowing and the weatherman telling his 'predictions' for the day and rest of the week. I haven't been on my bike at all for the last few days either because of the really bad rains of this last week, or the return of the higher heat and humidity that has left us in a sweat once again. I love my bike, but I haven't been in the mood oddly. I have thought about it with a pang in my heart...

There are certain special things in life, people too that fade away as beautifully as the bright light they shone upon their arrival. In a way, blogging has become somewhat of a dying art. It had it's "prime" like we all do... a bright, but short rise to, then fall from glory wherein many people did it because it was the latest cyber-fad, everyone else was doing it, or they loved it at first but for whatever reason, they lost their enthusiasm and decided to leave. We've lost many of our fellow bloggers here and there, when things in their life took more of their time and they weren't able to blog, or when they simply had other interests and just had no desire to do it anymore. Through blogging, we have met some wonderful, funny and inspirational people. One of those people, Tink of Pickled Beef , has decided to be the next one to fade away. This leaves me with a heavy heart... I have enjoyed so much her Weekly Words Challenge, and being a part of her comment comm...