Sunday, May 09, 2010

Always An Angel

My mother is a poem
I'll never be able to write,
though everything I write
is a poem to my mother.
~Sharon Doubiago

Sometimes I have trouble finding my muse... then I think of Mama, and I am miraculously able to move forward. Sometimes I feel down on my luck, or wonder how to go on... and then I think of what my Mom has endured in her own life, and all of the gifts I have because of her and I feel stupid not to put one more foot forward. Mom is an endless inspiration to me, an endless song of love. She's been the greatest teacher, the best friend, the warmest heart and the most comfort in times when she probably felt low on those things herself. There is nothing I hold higher than that precious soul on Earth that I call "Mom".

Although I feel that I have let her down many times in my life, and that I can never repay her fully for everything she has given to me, I try. I do the best I can, which I always feel pales in comparison to her. My guilt sometimes asphyxiates me and I don't know what to do. I wish I could spend every hour, every day and every moment helping her and loving her as she has me. I must resolve myself to the fact that I can't reach the heights that I want to, the heights that SHE deserves.

So I can only offer this, my undying love and devotion and the promise to her that no matter where I am, even if I am unable to be by her side at that given moment that my life, my heart and all of my love are a song, dedicated to her, one which would never have been played or sung if it were not for her existence, her decision to be here and give me her creation.

This woman, living proof of angels, who has endured so much, who has given all of herself to sustain and protect her children, and asked so very little in return, deserves the universe. My prayer is only that she realizes that it is already hers and that she is loved far, far more than she could ever be told with any words, by us all.

So, Mom, I Love You With Every Part Of My Soul. You are never far from thought and always close to heart. Your life has been a lesson in love; Because all of the love you share and the caring things you do, have taught us to reach out and help, to fix what is broken.

With love alone you have changed my life and for that I'm truly grateful. Happy Mothers Day!


Chelly said...

Wow. What a tribute. Happy Mother's Day to your lovely mama and all the mama's out there! You're a gem of a daughter Jackie.


kcinnova said...

This is a beautiful tribute to your mama, Jackie. ♥

Furtheron said...

Mother's Day!!! Always a mild panic then I remember - you have Mother's Day we have Mothering Sunday ... in March! Phew!

BBC said...

Didn't get along with my mother very well, glad you love yours.

Ily said...

Beautiful words to your mom. I love that she continues to inspire you! Hope you're having a great Sunday, amiguita! :)

Aunt Jackie said...

Thanks everyone, and I wish everyone could have known such great parents. I have been so very lucky in this life where it counts.

Wishing you a great week as well!