Saturday, December 13, 2008

Where Are My Salad Days?

Ahh the good ol' days... where have they run off to? Every time I start trying to live in the moment and forget the past, I fall right back into melancholy nostalgia. Saturday has zoomed by, and I hate that. I wish Saturdays would last much longer than they do. Spending the night at Mom's last night to help with Dad, upon trying to get some things done around here since I have been home it's just nearly gone.

Dad being home isn't making things much better, and it's not the happy event that it should have been. He is still miserable, talking some weird stuff, you know like trying to tell you something but he calls things very odd names, seems to be talking out of his head here and there. Then since he is still on "Honey Consistency" foods because of his poor swallowing (thank you elephant tranquilizer), he doesn't like anything that you bring him. He keeps asking for "Kool-aid", or "Fruit Juice". Then when you bring him something, like the Orange Juice he loves so much, or the Lemonaid, he doesn't like it. He isn't eating a lot really, but he's having lots of problems because he still can't get up and down and walk on his own, and it's difficult to impossible to get him from his chair to the bathroom. So there you go... Not quite sure how it's going to go, it's not good... not good at all.

Like I said though, I try to write to relieve stress, and to relax myself most of the times, and rarely come to my blog with the intentions of fixating on depressing things, but I just have lately because of everything we've all been facing in my family, and that it is the holiday season. It sucks on many levels, but it being the holiday season takes the 'suckatude' up a notch for sure.

I was trying to straighten up earlier, and I did run across the instructional handbook for my old Commodore Vic 20 that I got for Christmas when I was a kid. To think, I was actually kinda programming in BASIC and didn't even know it at the time. I had a couple fun games on it too. Wow, what a blast from the past. Most of you won't even know what the heck this thing is. Ah how many a' childhood hour I wasted on this thing probably.

Yikes what a keyboard!

Honestly though, I would love to come out with something fun and entertaining to write about right now. What on earth could it be though? Dreams? I haven't really been remembering my dreams the last few days. I haven't had any very cool experiences, and I've been just trying to hang on and get through everything while still trying to keep up with my own work and deadlines.

The only thing I can think of right now to return me to my "Salad Days", is to watch a Bugs Bunny cartoon. I miss cartoons, I miss the good ol' days and I miss "My Daddy"... Bear with me, I hope to be back again one of these days. You know what I mean.

Click to watch "Bully For Bugs"

Keep on keepin on with me everyone... hope you're all doing well. Thanks again for the continued support. Even when you don't know what to say, or think you've said something wrong, you're trying and that's very sweet of you.


Ole Blue The Heretic said...

When my Dad had cancer his personality changed. It was very drastic what the medicine did to him.

I hope your dad will be fine.

Love Bugs Bunny!

Chelly said...

Aww Jax, I know you're having a tough time right now but hang in there honey. I hope your daddy will recover fully and be back to his usual self. Hope your mom is keeping her strength up as well. Your family is blessed to have a daughter like you.

I nearly jumped out of my chair when I saw your Vic 20 (awesome pic)! We had that too. I used to love playing those games on it. We also had Commodore 64. :)
(Can you do a post on Childhood blog about your Vic 20?)

Sending you lots of love and hugs.

Chells :)

Furtheron said...

Best wishes for your Dad and all of you. Difficult times still.

Vic20! Hell I didn't think anyone remembered them. I was just going to college when these things started coming out. I dabbled with Sinclair Z80 and Spectrum but generally couldn't be arsed with it at home. By then I was a z80/z8000 assembler programmer writing military h/w s/w. God that seems a long time ago now.

Kenski said...

Hey AJ. Wow. Sorry about problems with your Dad. Life. Sucks. Sometimes.

I remember being so excited when one of my friends was upgrading to a ZX Spectrum and I bought his ZX80 on the cheap!

At that time, in the circles I ran in, the C64's were for the rich kids! We all wanted one!

Anonymous said...

Ah, the Commodore! I didn't have one but I remember them, played on a couple. To think we thought Pong was the ultimate cool game!

I bet your dad doesn't like the taste of anything because of the meds. It's tough when they aren't themselves and nothing pleases them. Hope this is only temporary.

Dr Zibbs said...

I love Warner Brothers cartoons!