Both Sides Now
I missed posting for my Dad's birthday, August 29th.. and some others. The weeks are just blurring together. I'm once again looking for work, and my self esteem is at an all time low. I feel like crud (emotionally).
Have been in a weird phase lately, trying to stay afloat, trying to find some sort of motivation, some sort of inspiration, but it never comes.
I'm struggling, and it is not letting up just yet, even though I feel like I've been waiting for that "light at the end of the tunnel" for nearly a decade now. That's one ridiculously long tunnel.
All I want is to feel secure again, and to have a reliable job to go to, a long-term "permanent" job doing what I love, which is web development-related, creative. Is that so much to ask? I'm so sick of getting the rejection letters from companies.
All I need is a foot in the door to prove that I can be great.
This downward spiral has to have an expiration date.
I swear I have done my time x 10... Isn't there anybody else (like some evil souls) in the universe (rapists, child molesters, murderers) that can take over this misery for a while? This is ridiculous, I deserve some joy in this life, and for once for everything not to be snatched away from me.
Have been in a weird phase lately, trying to stay afloat, trying to find some sort of motivation, some sort of inspiration, but it never comes.
I'm struggling, and it is not letting up just yet, even though I feel like I've been waiting for that "light at the end of the tunnel" for nearly a decade now. That's one ridiculously long tunnel.
All I want is to feel secure again, and to have a reliable job to go to, a long-term "permanent" job doing what I love, which is web development-related, creative. Is that so much to ask? I'm so sick of getting the rejection letters from companies.
All I need is a foot in the door to prove that I can be great.
This downward spiral has to have an expiration date.
I swear I have done my time x 10... Isn't there anybody else (like some evil souls) in the universe (rapists, child molesters, murderers) that can take over this misery for a while? This is ridiculous, I deserve some joy in this life, and for once for everything not to be snatched away from me.
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