Tuesday, June 05, 2012

Better Days

Ahhh yes, those elusive "Better Days". I have seen them, but they are still hiding, shyly like an only child on the first day of school. No, I'm not saying that I'm going through the worst time of my life right now at all, and I'm not a 'Whiner' by trade. However, I am just ready for things to take a definite turn in my desired direction. The problem is most likely with me, I will admit that. It's true, I haven't exactly embraced change lovingly. Rather, the changes in my life have taken me hostage under protest, although I have tried hard to accept them. These changes have not been a batch I would have chosen, if I had been given some opportunity to put in a personal request. Honestly? I have learned the hard way, that if we don't take a proactive approach in creating the life that we deserve, and want to live, we get "bulldozed" forward, uprooted and put back on the open road faced with so many directions that it can be blinding. When this happens, we can sit still and get run over, or we can get ourselves in motion and do our own driving.

Either way, quitting is not an option albeit very tempting at times, these times when I feel like staying in bed, pulling the covers over my head and hiding from the universe.

Yes, I've seen better days... but I have seen way worse.

11 comments:

Furtheron said...

I find it difficult to accept the changes that need compromise... takes me a lot of effort to get that

Aunt Jackie said...

My life totally changed without my consent sort of, I mean because I allowed certain things to happen, and then in my own way my reaction to it created other change... eventually it could not be fixed, so I had to accept it all. One one hand, I look back and wish I could just wake up from the bad dream and everything be the way it once was, then I get to thinking, 'Hey, what cool shit might be just around the corner that wouldn't be possible if things were still the same?' I think I was comfortably numb. ;-)

Of course it's painful to wake up from comfortably numb, but I think I will eventually look back on it all and understand... That's my hope. That there is a VERY GOOD reason and point to all this bullshit. (sigh)

Reb said...

Ah, yes! Better days indeed. I am sure yours are off with mine somewhere frolicking in the grass. Hopefully they will come back soon.

BBC said...

Ah fuck, I've been through 14 years of those days since moving here. In fact it's those days that started me blogging.

Now I'm getting to where I just don't give a fuck anymore if a have a women in my life or not.

I worked on my boat today. :-)

Chelly said...

Aw Jax, I hate to see you suffer so. Change is freaking hard. Such a tough journey. It's obvious that you're holding your own. It will get better. Just don't forget how wonderful you are...And beautiful, man you look so pretty in your Facebook pic on the sidebar there.

Hugs.

Bizarro Aunt Jackie said...

Thank you Chelly! You're always the sweetest.

Anonymous said...

hey Jackie.....just checking to see if you are blogging and its still good stuff. hugs to ya-faith

Anonymous said...

hey jackie, just stopped by to read your wonderful blog-hugs faith

BBC said...

HELLO???? !!!!!

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