Thursday, December 08, 2016

Whateva Will Be

There is a pretty significant gap between my last post and this one, which I didn't intend, but as usual it happens sometimes. I was looking at my last post, and trying to remember why I would even toss that sort of "quickie" lame type of thing up, but I was probably just trying to post and was pressed for time. Lame, lame, lame. ;-)

The time between that and now has not been the most pleasant,  I've had some issues and gone through a few things. No reason, honestly for me to detail all of that, I don't want to put every detail out to the m-asses, but just know I am working through it, looking forward to it being all better soon, and doing my best to "keep on keeping on"... after all, whateva will be, right?

Everything from the last few months has written home to me about how I truly need to press forward and utilize my talents more. This life is so short, and we waste so much of it catering to others' satisfaction and happiness, including but not limited to their "approval" of what we do and how we live our lives (usually this applies to family, especially in my case--and PLEASE DON'T COMMENT THAT YOU DON'T CARE WHAT ANYONE THINKS, I KNOW THAT, I'M NOT ADDRESSING YOU, JUST SPEAKING IN GENERAL)--that was my Disclaimer thanks.

I know that it's a free country and everyone can comment what they please, but it really irritates me when I am just writing in general, making a point or just expressing my own thoughts and someone has to clarify that shit, "Not me, I've never cared what anyone thinks, I live my life the way I want" or something like that. Everything I write doesn't need a contradictory response, or a lesson in reply. Thanks.

So this morning, I'm not very busy and I just felt like typing a little bit, as I type fast, I really enjoy typing and it always seems to relax me. Writing, poetry, lyrics, stories, etc--that is one of my biggest loves along with my art and music, I really want to do more with it, and given the opportunity I am sure as hell going to try.

I've lived my entire life, thus far, taking care of everyone, staying near home out of guilt and worrying about disappointing my family. It is high time that I get some real joy and quality of life out of whatever I have left. Word... 100... enjoy your day.

Wednesday, August 31, 2016

I Put A Spell On You

What battery percentage is your phone on right now?:93%
Do any medical afflictions run in your family?:There has been some cancer and diabetes
Who did you last talk to in person and what did you say?:Told one of my best friends "Talk to you later."
What's your favourite Mexican dish?:Probably either Enchiladas or Arroz con Pollo
Have you ever been to a professional sports game?:Yes
How far do you live from New York City?:Lil over 1,000 miles
How often do you talk to your parents?:In spirit, all the time--They have passed on.
Do you prefer pads, tampons or something else?:Ewww nobody wants to hear that lol
What was the weather like in your town today?:It's very hot but a pretty day
Are there any phrases or words that you say a lot?:Yes
How many boyfriends or girlfriends have you ever had?:I don't know
Have you ever ordered a specially made cake from a cake shop?:No, well birthday cakes maybe from a grocery store bakery.
What was the last movie you saw and who did you watch it with?:By myself, I watched "Old School" last night.
What's the name of your first real boyfriend or girlfriend?:Lee
Do you clean your ears daily?:Yes
What accent do you have?:Southern
What scent of air freshener do you keep in your bathroom?:Rain or something like that
Have you ever dated a model?:No lol
What's the best job you've ever had?:Web designer
How about the worst?:Medical records clerk
Do you have naturally straight hair?:No it's wavy
What is your ultimate goal in life?:Survival
Have you ever visited someone in prison?:No
What months were you and your siblings born in? :February, June, July and December
Do you write down your passwords in a physical place to prevent losing them:Nope I have a mental system
What are your three favourite vegetables?:Broccoli, Cauliflower and Spinach
How many times a day do you check Facebook or any other social network?:Countless
When was the last time you had a blockednose?:Couple days ago after being out on my motorcycle.
Who is your favourite comedian?:I'm not sure
What colour are the socks you're wearing today?:None
What did you have for dinner last night?:Yogurt
What was the last concert you went to?:I think it was Rob Zombie
Are you an ugly crier?:Yeah
What scent is the soap or body wash you use in the shower?:I like Caress and/or Dial soap
Have you ever had sex in/on a vehicle?:Yes
Who do you live with?:Friend/Family
What letter does your street name begin with?:P
Do you do anything to groom your eyebrows?:Yes
When was the last time you ate at McDonald's?:Earlier this week, chicken biscuit
What's your favourite Popsicle flavour?:Grape
Who was the last person you sent a Facebook message to and what did you say:Jessica, and it was just talking about the holiday
Do you have any injuries at the moment?:Not really
Have you ever been to an ophthalmologist?:Yeah
Do you own any animal print clothes?:No
Are you tall, short or average? Would you change this?:I guess a little above average... I'd be taller if I could.
When was the last time you went to a drug store/pharmacy? :Walgreens is my place, sometimes I just shop there... idk, last week?
Do you ever binge-watch TV shows?:Yeah on Netflix or Hulu
Have you ever mustered up the courage to tell someone how you feel only...:Yes absolutely...
to be rejected?:Yes absolutely...
Do you keep your files and documents organised in one place?:I try
What's your favourite sweet treat to bake?:Chocolate Chip Cookies
Are you good at flirting and letting people know you're interested?:Somewhat
What did you have for breakfast today?:Chicken Croissant from BK
Do you prefer sweet or savoury breakfasts?:I like good ol' fashioned grits, pancakes or even just cereal
Do you like chick-flicks?:Yes
Have you ever taken an acting class?:No
What is your favourite kind of berry?:Blueberries
When was the last time you watched one of your favourite movies?:Last Night
How often do you use Youtube?:Daily sometimes
Do you prefer Prince or Michael Jackson?:Prince
What's the coolest thing you've ever dressed up as for Halloween?:The Devil
Are you ignoring anyone right now?:No
How do you usually style your hair?:Curly or turned up on ends if short...
Do you have any tattoos? Tell me about them.:Yes... don't feel like detailing.
Have you ever worked in a store while someone shoplifted there?:Yes I remember that happening at Walmart.
When was the last time you used a stove?:Over the weekend.
Is there anything you absolutely refuse to eat?:Yeah anything yucky.
Are you sitting, standing or laying (or something else) right now?:Sitting at desk
How many hours per week do you typically work?:40ish
What was the last pill or tablet you took?:Aspirin a few days ago
How far away from your house is the closest grocery store?:Less than 5 miles
Have you ever lived in university/college campus housing?:Yes
Who was the last person you complimented?:Myself
Are you the type of person to take naps, even if you've slept plenty?:Yes
Do you have a crush on anyone at the moment?:Nah
The age old question: dogs or cats?:Cats
When was the last time you saw your best friend?:This morning in the Mirror =)
Do you know any couples who resemble each other?:Idk
Have you ever been fired from a job? Why?:
Are you tired right now?:Yes
Do you like spring rolls?:Yes
What do you live on in terms of a street, road, crescent, place, court etc?:Street
How many purses or handbags do you own?:Idk
Do you get along with all your aunts and uncles?:Idk
Have you ever eavesdropped and heard something you didn't want to hear?:Yes
When was the last time you used a pen, pencil or marker?:Today
What's your favourite type of curry?:Chicken
Do you often go to do or say something and then just forget?:Sometimes
Who makes you laugh the hardest?:Idk
Have you ever had casual sex?:Yes
What was the last thing you paid for with cash?:Food yesterday
What's the last letter of your middle name?:N
If your phone rang right now from a number you don't know, would you answer:No
How long is your hair?:Medium
What was your first pet's name and how did you pick that?:Verfang is named after a WoW character, Dion is named after Dionysus
Do you drink diet or regular soda?:I avoid it most times, occasionally a little regular coca cola
Have you ever been to Europe?:Not yet
Do you worry about your own health?:Sometimes
Who did you last make plans with, and what plans did you make?:Hell I don't know
Can you smell anything right now?:Yes, my own deodorant
How old were you when you got your first cell phone?:Idk
When was the last time you bought a pair of shoes?:Idk a few months ago
Do you like fruit and vegetable combo juices?:Yes
Have you ever been on a spring break trip?:Yes
Would you rather be warmer or colder right now?:Colder
How tall are your highest heels?:5 or 6 inches I guess
What's your favourite flavour of frosting?:Chocolate
When did you wake up today?:4:30 a.m.
Do you change your appearance often?:Sometimes
What colour are the street signs in your town/suburb?:White blocks
Have you ever blocked someone on Facebook? Why?:Yes, because they were a weird creeper.
How many people do you work with?:I don't know
What was the last thing you ate?:Sandwich
Do you have any plans for three hours in the future?:I don't know
Has anyone ever made a comment about your weight that offended or upset you:Yeah of course

Thursday, July 14, 2016

I Thought The Future Would Be Cooler

The other day, I was lazing around in bed watching Netflix and happened across "Back to the Future" (Part II to be exact), and I was remembering the funny quirks in the movie, which is set in the 1980s, plot starting in 1985. Originally the characters Doc Brown and Marty McFly go back to 1955 to go do some damage control to save Marty's parents, and then in Part II we begin on October 26, 1985. 'Dr. Emmett Brown arrives in his flying time machine and persuades Marty McFly and his girlfriend, Jennifer, to come back to the future with him to help their future children. Biff Tannen witnesses their departure. They arrive on October 21, 2015, where Doc electronically knocks out Jennifer and leaves her asleep in an alley, explaining that she should not have too much knowledge of future events. He has Marty pose as his own son to refuse an offer to participate in a robbery with Biff's grandson, Griff.' Then even more trouble ensues. You can read all about it here at the Back to the Future II Wiki page (or just watch it).

So this got me thinking about the fact that they were in 1985, zoomed into "the future" of 2015 (30 years ahead of their time, and now last year for us here in the present). It kind of blew my mind... I went back and looked at the movie's 'vision' of what 2015 was going to be like, the technology, clothes, flying cars and gadgets. It was comical and also a little depressing.

Yes, I believe we could have totally had many of those things come to fruition by now, but I think that "they" realize that we humans would just screw up the coolness of it all. Somehow we would (in true human being fashion) find a way to ruin it for the whole universe. The hoverboards, the ones that we actually DO have do not actually levitate, but if they did I can only imagine the potential for disaster. Oh Man Just Think About This!.

A Flying Memphis? No thanks, I'll pass.
Hey I am from Memphis, so don't even get me started on the unthinkable prospect of giving all of these already brain dead numbskulls, who can't even properly operate a motorized vehicle on the asphalt, access to airspace and flying vehicles. The chaotic clusterfuck this would undoubtedly cause is something I don't think any of us are truly ready for. Let's just leave it to fantasy and the Jetsons or Extraterrestrials with the necessary higher intelligence... at least for now.

Also, all of our best music, memories and good times are in the past. Everything going on in the present is a tragedy, a heartbreak or disappointment. If I were even thinking of having children, I would be hard pressed to convince myself that bringing a child into the world that we live in today is a good idea, much less a humane thing to do. I know life must go on, and maybe someone somewhere will come through this world and make some legendary change that will help improve this ragged rock once again. I know the past isn't perfect either, but it seems to me like all of our world changers, legends and superheroes are back then and not now.

This may all seem like a lot of negative talk that many of you probably don't want to read or think about, but I am just expressing my feelings from the point of time and my own perspective. I don't expect everyone to share my lackluster visions of the present and future. I don't want it to fail, I want things to improve and I would love to see the world be good again (well, better than it ever has been to be honest). With everyone constantly in the throes of such hatred, animosity and divide, thoughtless, unkind, not able to look at the bigger picture and have a lust for the greater good for all humanity, I just don't see it happening any time soon.

"Come With Me!!" (Yes Sir!)
I make jokes a lot about hoping to be abducted by aliens (well in my mind they are sexy-hot aliens that look like Jason Momoa, Brad Pitt, Idris Elba, Anthony Mackie, Joe Manganiello, Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson or some similar fine beings). The aliens in my fantasy have way cooler technology than we could ever think of, and they're awesome, so laid-back, they live in peace, harmony and unity. In my ultimate sexy idea of this, all they want to do is make music, make love, ride motorcycles and be happy. In light of all that, and as an interesting side-note, I had a kind of strange dream last night that I was sitting in a weird room awaiting some sort of alien invasion in which we were supposed to be taken somewhere (you know how vague dreams can be) so I don't know what that was all about, and I'm sure it wasn't about to be as cool as what I described above, so I was quite elated when my alarm clock went off this morning.

In conclusion, yes I know we have to just resolve to do our best with what we have right here, right now, learn to make the most of the small moments, and time spent with those we love. We must make those small gestures, tiny glints of happiness, the good things that we DO still have count for more than all the bad stuff. Maybe that is really all we can expect, and if we put enough stock into those little things that bring the occasional smile to our faces, we might then realize that it's like this: The man said to the Buddha, "I want Happiness." Buddha said, "First remove 'I', that's ego, then remove 'want', that's desire. See now you are left with only Happiness."

Nahhh "F" that shit, just bring me my time machine and let me get the hell out of here.

“Think of all the beauty still left around you and be happy.” 
― Anne Frank

"I Thought The Future Would Be Cooler"

(by Yacht)
Crowdsourced cults, all lit up on LED: next thing you know, you’re sipping on a battery.

Infinitely scroll through a SWAT team on the sidewalk, serving death by remote control and unrestricted sidearms.

I thought the future would be cooler. I thought the brave world would be newer.

Loving comes easy (Nothing new) but liking it ain’t free. (Underneath the sun) We save our face in public (I can't save you) when we erase each other privately. (You’re already gone)

Got my broken heart—I got it sold right back to me—by an algorithmic social entity!

I thought the future would be cooler. I thought the brave world would be newer.

Looking for the edge of our unrendered world. I don’t know what we’ll find; Oh, here comes tomorrow!

I thought the future would be cooler. I thought the brave world would be newer.