Sweet Friday Nothings

Nothing interesting to tell really lately, I have been pretty busy at work and so have fallen off of my daily July posting. I don't really feel up to making up the posts when I haven't posted on those days.

So here I am, end of the work week and looking at the weekend with less-than-electric fervor. Nothing cool, nothing much to look forward to and just blah you see.

I will post more feelings or epiphanies if they come to light.

Just tired and feeling lazy right now. However, the weather today is nice.

Tired Out

I found a "roofing nail" in my back motorcycle tire. It didn't appear that the tire had lost any air, but with a bike tire you don't need to take any chances. So I ran it over to a nearby place (didn't go all the way to the dealer), and he said that with the positioning of said nail and the condition of the tire (about 6,200 miles on it) It wouldn't be safe to try to patch.

I was going to go ahead and spring for both new tires as it is a good idea to try to replace both bike tires at the same time, but he didn't have them in stock and would have to order. Therefore, I decided to go with one, just the back tire that he did have in stock for now. I can get a good few more miles out of the front one anyway, and maybe I will be in better shape and can spring for a new set of really good ones. Was just the way my day started... I made the best decision I felt like at the time. So Jimi's all set for a few more miles then, and I am looking towards braving the hot sizzling sun this afternoon under a heat warning since I rode to work because of having to go get the tire issue straight.

All things on the horizon are looking like they might improve and I believe new opportunities for growth are just around the corner. I am making myself a solemn vow to keep positive and let stress roll off my back. I am advised to do so as well, and it's a good idea anyway. So look for a more positive and uplifting, healing AJ in the days to come. I am going to give it my best shot.

Lately I have been checking out the new show "HUNG" on HBO, starring "Thomas Jane". I am o.k. on it so far although it has not yet proved itself to be a very exhilarating show, I am giving it a fair shake. Now, though, I am stuck on its theme song by a band called "The Black Keys"... Check It Out: I'll Be Your Man.

Not sure why I like it so much it just grew on me.

O' South! (WWC)

First off this fine Tuesday, I would like to extend a special thanks to the ultra-sweet Angela of 'No More Empty Fortune Cookies' for sending me a very inspirational reminder to stop neglecting my creative soul side. I am guilty of doing just that, I put other things before my own heart a lot of the time, and I have neglected my painting among other things so I appreciate that lovely note Angela! Thanks and I am going to really work on that.

Strangely I am not late this week putting up my Weekly Words Challenge (WWC) photos, and I know you are all shocked! The Lovely Tink is our MC as always.

This weeks words were "SOUTH" and the letter "O".

Although I never feel like I excel with these as much as I should (or would if I had plenty of creative time-my fault) I have them.

Tires are shaped like the letter "O".


nOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! Face


"O" Face


When you see "Welcome To Mississippi"
have no doubt, you're in the South!


Way Down South In The Land Of Cotton...

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Just Another

Manic Monday

One True Thing

I'm the one that has to die when it's time for me to die, so let me live my life, the way I want to. ~Jimi Hendrix

If there is one (more) thing I cannot stand it is a person who has the nerve to assume something, or say something in regard to a person when they don't know the first thing about them. I may have my faults, I may talk about a lot of things and have confusion in my life but I hate drama, and if there was ever one true thing I can say it is that I know myself, and I know who I am.

Nobody else really sees that or understands it, but it is my business just as your life is yours and I'm sure that everyone has enough to worry about in their own life that they have no business making judgments about another, especially when they are clueless about that person, and by no means balanced themselves!


Lesson of the day?? Keep your own nose clean and keep your big fat fingers out of my face... Cowardice and Hypocrisy live on in one very special individual and they know who they are.

Don't worry... it's none of you my blog pals. Just rest easy and go back to your regularly scheduled programming. ;-)

Routine Joy

Well, it's Friday. Yay.

Turn On The Heart Light

My heart has felt very heavy lately. I've felt overwhelmed by a lot of things. While I advise others to let stress roll off their backs and say:

"Don't worry over things you have no control over" it seems so hard for me to take my own medicine. Why??

I know it does no good to stew over anything... I'm trying hard not to.

Just lately it's been financial crap, seemingly one issue after the other. I can't help but get a little tightened up over it because I have to pay the bills and we have to be able to get to and from work and groceries etc... I know that I am fortunate though so far that we are making it... albeit paycheck-to-paycheck, but still afloat. Many people have things worse than that lately, so I truly hope that things get better for everybody... not just me.

People need to wake up and realize that we need to all help one another and when given an opportunity to make some sort of a difference we should take it. If everyone did one thing a day to help another soul, then it would be a vast improvement.

It would only take a moment out of the 24 hour day and then they could get back to their rudeness and apathy...

My road rage has been at an all-time high lately. Now when I say road rage, I don't mean that I'm going to be the person you see pulling out an oozy on the side of the road and trying to massacre the whole of I-40. That's not me... but I do cuss and scream like a sailor from point A to point B... I can't help it. There are too many frikkin idiots out there.

Why do they all think they are so special and privileged? Why are they the only ones that matter? Between this and the Restaurant Sauce Nazis I think I'm going to have to stage a revolt.

The other thing that keeps a constant heaviness in my heart is still the huge hole left by this year's death of my Father (January 14th). I know in my soul that he is like 110% better, and happy, and healed of all of his Earthly pains and agony. I also feel that our grief is the only thing that bothers him now... but that's bad enough. I know he wants us to stop grieving, but it's so very hard. We miss him terribly. My Mom is just miserable without him, even though she still says she feels his presence and spirit in the house.

I think the biggest part of what pulls my heart down so badly is my Mom. I love her so much, and I want to spend time with her just like I always wanted to spend as much time too while Daddy was still alive. Life is so short and time is so fleeting. We cannot waste time. Doing what we feel in our hearts that we want and need to do is of the utmost importance. We only have a certain amount of time here in this Earthly existence, and although I am not quite sure what the "Punchline" is yet, I know that we are here to accomplish certain things. We're provided with instincts, "inner voices" that try to help us along the way. We're given the sense to pay attention to the signs and messages so desperately trying to reach us. It's up to us to make it right... We can't wait for someone else to come along and make changes for us or make our lives complete... WE are who are looking for... it's up to us.

So I try my best to spend time with Mom while futilely trying to maintain a normal life. Besides, what is a normal life now anyway? Everything has changed in dark ways since Dad's passing. My childhood home, once a place of peace and restoration for me has become an empty, melancholy shell of its former self. The spirit of the house is sad now, the multitudes of laughter we have all shared for so many years in our growing up is a distant echo.

Mom is there, for the first time in her life completely alone... and lonelier than I have ever seen her. It's way worse than just "empty nest" syndrome I feel. She finds ways to make it through the days and nights, but I wonder just how well she makes it. She seems even more frail and skinny, even though she swears she eats plenty.

I feel very guilty for just having my husband to go home to because I know that at the end of the day she is in complete silence and sadness with nobody at all and nothing but her thoughts. As hard as it is for me knowing that I can't go and just see my father, or pick up the phone now and say "Hey Dad, what are you up to??" I know that it runs so much deeper for her.

What am I supposed to do? Every fiber of my being longs to take care and heal people of their pain and sadness, and with her I am completely helpless. I don't think things are ever going to be any better there at home. Gloom has moved in to stay.

Weekly Words Challenge Updated

Just a quick note to say that I finally updated my photos to the Weekly Words Challenge for this past Tuesday. I was later than usual yes. I only posted 5 photos, but You Can See Them Here.

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