I've been mulling over in my head lately, why my blogging has fallen off, and I was thinking maybe I should begin a new blog in the efforts of changing ideas, times, situations, etc. Maybe the reason I am stuck is not just because I have been extremely busy, but also because of the theme, and all of the old memories here.
So I have seriously been thinking of keeping the relic, but starting a fresh blog to move forward.
Ahhh yes, those elusive "Better Days". I have seen them, but they are still hiding, shyly like an only child on the first day of school. No, I'm not saying that I'm going through the worst time of my life right now at all, and I'm not a 'Whiner' by trade. However, I am just ready for things to take a definite turn in my desired direction. The problem is most likely with me, I will admit that. It's true, I haven't exactly embraced change lovingly. Rather, the changes in my life have taken me hostage under protest, although I have tried hard to accept them. These changes have not been a batch I would have chosen, if I had been given some opportunity to put in a personal request. Honestly? I have learned the hard way, that if we don't take a proactive approach in creating the life that we deserve, and want to live, we get "bulldozed" forward, uprooted and put back on the open road faced with so many directions that it can be blinding. When this happens, we can sit still and get run over, or we can get ourselves in motion and do our own driving.
Either way, quitting is not an option albeit very tempting at times, these times when I feel like staying in bed, pulling the covers over my head and hiding from the universe.
Yes, I've seen better days... but I have seen way worse.
Well the time is coming for me to blog again, and I have been wanting to start. At first I thought about doing a completely new blog, but I have an attachment to this one with all of its ups and downs, and I just don't really wanna let go of it. That's the way I am with a lot of things.
Call it a fault, or maybe a gift, but sentimentality is a big part of me.
Gearing up for a big comeback,
** Not that I like this song really, but I thought it was fitting.
Yes, I'm trying to make regular posts, but with my computer still on the outs at home, and my phone not being quite as sweet as a Blackberry should be, I am still waxing and waning like my ruling planet. ((Insert favorite 'taking Jackie overly-serious, trying to call her ignorant comment here so she can blatantly disregard it and think you're a moron)).
I've had several topics go in and out of my head that I thought about writing about, and then I get distracted, busy or both and don't get a chance to capture a few lines to hold my place. One that has kind of held on is something that I keep wondering about myself, as well as others who might share this idiosyncrasy.
Pass The Popcorn!!!
The question plaguing my mind is, "Why do I relentlessly watch certain movies over and over gazillions of times?" Seriously, some movies I can barely make it through once, some are movies that I say, "Ah that one was pretty good, but I wouldn't really watch it again." Then there are those that I find I either drag out of my collection and toss in the DVD player even though I've seen them so many times I have memorized every line, or I will see that they are on TV and get caught up and mesmerized and have to watch 'since it just happens to be on'.
A few of these for me, are "Back To The Future" (all of them), "Breakfast Club", "Ferris Bueller's Day Off", "Sixteen Candles" (you can see that these are just favorite 80s movies that must conjure up something for me. More modern ones are "Just Friends" (starring Ryan Reynolds and Amy Smart--HILARIOUS to me), "White Chicks", "The Best Man", "Mona Lisa Smile", "Runaway Bride", "The Brothers", "Soul Food", "Grumpy Old Men / Grumpier Old Men", and then of course some of my Christmas faves I get stuck on in the season, "Bad Santa", "A Christmas Story"... Well you get the picture, and I promise there are many more in my collection.
Many people that know this about me don't understand, and then you have others who are down with the same affliction. So I just don't know... what actually causes those of us who do, to be compelled to sit through these cinematic adventures with limitless fervor? Feel free to repeat the same ol' tired observations about watching movies and t.v. being a waste of valuable time, because hey I already know that, but I'm grown and I waste my time as I wish.
Anyway, it's just something that I was thinking about.
I don't have much time to throw down a post, but I thought I would pop in for a quick post-New Year's update. The holidays being over, my smile is slowly growing. Yes I am so glad the holidays came, went and are long over.
Anyroad, I haven't really been able to get to blogger much, I attempted a post from my cellphone via text last night but it wasn't set-up or didn't work, so here I am. My home PC has been down for repair, and I am waiting for parts to come in, so I haven't really had convenient time or place to blog. Not much yet to report for the brand new year we're in, except just acclimating to new systems at work due to the new company that recently came in, so it's been a little hectic there.
Don't worry, I'm not stopping and my frequency will continue, I just hit a little snag in time.
Oh goody! It's nearly 2012 so you know what that means, we get to look forward to another year with people obsessed about doomsday prophecies and all that cool jazz. I'm interested to see how much crazier people can get about these things.
In the meantime, however we have to keep working on our own destinies... one moment at a time, right? If we get a new moment, then we make the best of it and keep climbing and trying, not driving and crying... lol.
Anyway, Christmas? I survived... I'm just very glad it is over. Now I just hope I can finally see some progress and work on more good things about myself this year. It's time for change, and I mean more than just that stupid crap that refuses to come out of the vending machine.
In honor of the new year that we are looking towards, I will interject a word about Resolutions... I don't do them. That's my resolution... I resolve not to make resolutions... so instead, I offer some alternative "affirmations" if anyone is feeling inspirational (and/or sarcastic)... if not, shut the fuck up I'm rich enough without your 2 cents... you do you, I'll do me. (yeah yeah, insert juvenile, tasteless sexual innuendo here that I will just ignore).
So... here you go, like it or not... here's to the new year, the beginning of "The End" and all...
As I release feelings of guilt, I get more in touch with
my inner sociopath.
I have the power to channel my imagination into
ever-soaring levels of suspicion and paranoia.
I assume full responsibility for my actions, except the
ones that are someone else's fault.
In some cultures what I do would be considered normal.
My intuition nearly makes up for my lack of wisdom and
I need not suffer in silence while I can still moan,
whimper, and complain.
When someone hurts me, I know that forgiveness is
cheaper than a lawsuit, but not nearly as rewarding.
I am at one with my duality.
Blessed are the flexible, for they can tie themselves in
I will strive to live each day as if it were my 50th
I honor & express all facets of my being, regardless
of state/local laws.
Today I will gladly share my experience and advice, for
there are no sweeter words than "I told you so!"
A scapegoat is almost as good as a solution.
Just for today, I will not sit in my living room all
day in my underwear. Instead, I will move my computer into the bedroom.
I will no longer waste my time reliving the past; I
will spend it worrying about the future.
The complete lack of evidence is surest proof
the conspiracy is working.
Before I criticize a man, I walk a mile in his shoes.
That way, if he gets angry, he's a mile away and barefoot.