Deep In The Forrest

Feeling "ok" today, nothing to really make much note of... however, I feel a little mean. You know what I mean? If you have anything smart to say, then my response is... Yeah Me :)

It's getting colder, everywhere... Chillier days, falling leaves, life's chill. I still have my own warm heart to keep me going, that is if I can keep the fire burning. People do make it hard sometimes. We have to rise above things, and it's not always easy. Let me digress... Let's talk about something else besides my continuous growing pains. I can only imagine how boring that gets. Boy could I write a good book right now though. Going to get on that project soon... bet that. :) The weather has been giving me the lethargic and lazy qualities, so it's been a challenge for me to get everything accomplished. I have to be very tough on myself at times to meet my deadlines and get important work finished. There's really not much to report if I am not complaining about the current state of affairs in life, so I will just say that I am trying to get some work done, and listening to my Pandora Radio on my TV. Music always does help productivity for me. We'll see. ...

Hope everyone had a great, safe and fun Halloween weekend... Mine was pretty nice. Still I struggle to write, and search aimlessly for my muse. Maybe my muse is as dead as my heart sometimes? I don't know, we'll see. Moment to moment and I will continue each day to try a little harder to get back to full creative mode. Meanwhile, today I would like to pay tribute to our loved ones who have passed on, and remember them, celebrate them and thank them for having been a part of our lives and continuing to be so, in our hearts, in our souls, in our smiles, they live forever. I would like to share a quote given me by a good friend (niece's boyfriend), basically a family member (if you will), Eddy. "En la noche de la muerte, la esperanza ve una estrella, y escuchar el amor puede escuchar el susurro de un ala." It means... [In the night of death, hope sees a star, and listening love can hear the rustle of a wing.] As I may have mentioned before, even as we walk through sh...

So it seems that every day people new and people old weave themselves in and out of my life, leaving me wrapped up in the web that they have weaved about me and dulling my senses. I can only walk moment to moment and search the shadows, in which I have always hidden so that I may find myself and take me home. AJ

Joyful as the thought may be of having all of the answers to everything, how much fun would that truly be? As painful as some of our lessons in life are, if you knew the end result of any given experience the odds are that you would avoid many endeavors that otherwise gave you a lot of joy, love and pleasure. You'd really miss a lot of those 'in between gifts'. So all's well that ends, well, even not-so-well. Forty-two is just about as good an answer to the question of life as any I can think of, so you will just have to accept that and continue licking your wounds, and continue experiencing things that are not always joyful, magical or fairy tale endings. You'll thank me as well as yourself later for allowing yourself to live life. Move forward, unafraid, knowing that in times of trouble you're equipped with an armor far tougher than you realized and bear a strength that has saved itself for this very moment. Remember, "Change is neither good nor bad. It j...

Dragonflies are something very magical... This must be true since they're one of the few enormous insects that I am enamored of and I do not run screaming from. Yes, I think they hold many ancient secrets of the universe ;) Read Dragonfly Symbolism . It just seems like a good day to take flight on the back of one of these mysterious creatures. What say you!?? Let's go! It's very far away It takes about a half and a day to get there If we travel by my uh, dragon-fly No it's not in Spain But all the same you know, it's a groovy name And the wind's just right. Hey ! Hang on my darling Hang on if you wanna go Here it's a really groovy place It's uh, just a little bit of uh, said uh, Spanish Castle Magic. The clouds are really low And they overflow with cotton candy And battle grounds red and brown But it's all in your mind Don't think your time on bad things Just float your little mind around Look out ! Ow ! Hang on my darling, yeah Hang on if you ...

All I seem to be able to say whenever I come by to leave a post these last couple of months is "Things have been crazy and I haven't had time to think/post etc". As much as I would like to stop saying that, it's been crazy for sure in all areas of life. Still, my longing to write, and to write something more than status messages for my blog is strong and I want to resume writing things that I enjoy here. My attempt to try getting back into the swing of things, and get back to "Jackie", even more than ever before is in progress. I am here, I have been digging deep down inside myself to keep 'her' from drowning. Nothing I could say here would merit just a blog, just rest assured that everything that I have gone through lately and in the past too will become part of my book. I've decided as soon as my feet are back on the ground enough to move forward, and I get some other projects done that I have promised to people, and that I have been trying to...